Code Lyoko: Breaking Point
Jeremy walked into his room and slammed the door. He wished he could deal with all of his problems like that, just lock them away. Instead, the door just provided him with temporary sanctuary until somebody knocked on it.
Sometime later, Aelita did just that.
“Jeremy, are you in there?” she asked in that soft voice that always captivated Jeremy. Had it been anyone else, Jeremy would have just ignored them and continued to sulk on his bed. But Aelita was different, and the sound of her voice hypnotized Jeremy enough to get him of off his feet and to the door.
Jeremy turned the knob and cracked the door open. There seemed to be some kind of light that radiated off of Aelita, an aura or something. She always stood out to Jeremy, even when surrounded by other people.
But with all of her light and radiance, Jeremy’s morose face remained, hardly moved by her presence.
“Can I come in?” Aelita asked. The kindest eyes Jeremy had ever seen were looking at him, but his sullen demeanor remained.
“Yeah,” he finally replied. Aelita walked into his room, looking at him with a look of concern and empathy before sitting down on his office chair.
“You seemed like you were in a hurry to leave,” she said. “You left The Factory once we were all safe and devitalized.”
“Yeah,” Jeremy said back, sitting down on his bed.
“You didn’t stick around to say anything. It wasn’t like you.”
Jeremy sighed, then pulled his laptop out of his bag before handing it to Aelita.
“I meant to give you this,” he told her.
“But, don’t you need it?” Aelita asked.
“Not anymore, Aelita. I’m no good for you people.”
“Wha… how can you say that?”
Jeremy sat back, resting his head on the wall, squeezed his eyes tightly for a second.
“Aelita, I almost got you and the others killed today,” he said. “I thought we were getting so close, I thought we were finally making progress, and I was so wrong. All I’ve done is fail, Aelita. I’m done.”
“Jeremy, that’s not true,” Aelita replied.
“We’re always on the defensive,” Jeremy continued, this time with more inflection. “Always, and I hate it. I hate feeling powerless, feeling vulnerable. And every time we try to take the fight to XANA, it always backfires so badly. Always!”
“Every time I try something, it blows up in our faces,” Jeremy interrupted. “Every time I try to get off my ass and do something, every time I try to stop reacting and start being active, I always end up putting everyone in danger. I can’t do this, anymore. Every time I try something, Aelita, I fail.”
Aelita got out of her chair and sat down next to him.
“That’s not true,” she said with a dominate tone. Their faces were mere inches apart.
“It is,” Jeremy replied.
“No. You’ve might’ve failed sometimes, but you’ve succeeded a lot of times.”
“Every time we deactivated a tower,” Aelita reminded.
“That was all you.”
“You helped. You virtualized us, guided us; we couldn’t have done it without your support.”
“Yes, you could’ve.”
“If you fail every time you try something, why am I sitting here, Jeremy?” Aelita asked. “Why am I in the real world? Why do we have a Skid, or a Super-Scan?”
“It took me over a year to get you out of Lyoko.”
“And you did it, Jeremy. You succeeded. You saved me.”
Jeremy leaned forward and put his right hand on his forehead.
“I’m incompetent, Aelita,” he said. “I can’t provide what you and the others need. I’m just not good enough.”
“Jeremy!” Aelita said, then stared at him with exasperation. “Damn it, that’s true. You’ve spent countless hours learning things about the supercomputer that no one else knows. You’ve put in time and effort that no one else has, and you’ve mastered the supercomputer.”
“You’re just as good with it.”
“But I’m needed on Lyoko!”
Aelita put her right hand on Jeremy’s left shoulder, leading Jeremy to look back up at her close face.
“I need you to operate the supercomputer,” she said. “When XANA attacks and I need to deactivate a tower, you’re the only person I trust to successfully virtualize me. Everything we’ve done would’ve been impossible without you. Believe me.”
There came a silent stare, and Jeremy still looked unconvinced.
“We had a close call today, but we made it,” Aelita continued. “You tried something new, it didn’t work, and that’s okay. It’s okay to fail. Everyone fails at something one time or another. I mean… you’re human. You feeling bad because an idea didn’t work, and… that happens to everyone.”
“Not everyone puts lives at risk with their stupidity,” Jeremy replied.
“You’re not stupid! You’re one of the smartest people I’ve ever met.”
“You’re smarter than me.”
It took Aelita a moment to come up with a reply.
“I don’t know about that,” she said. “Here’s what I know, Jeremy. I’ve mentioned the supercomputer, the superscan, the Skid, and saving me. You’re feeling bad because you failed, and you know what, you’re right. You have failed, and so has everybody. But look at what you have done, what you have succeeded at. It’s a lot more than most people could ever imagine. So yes, you have failed. There have been multiple times you’ve failed. But the times you have succeeded – they’ve been spectacular, Jeremy. I really mean that.”
“I’m sorry, Aelita,” he responded. “I just don’t think I’m good enough.”
Aelita’s expression changed from exasperation to silent sadness.
“Look, Jeremy… this has been hard on everyone. The fight against XANA, I mean. And it really has taken a large toll on everyone. Odd, Yumi, and Ulrich; they’ve been through a lot. Just as we’ve been through a lot. I mean, we’re teenagers, for God’s sakes. We’ve got enough hardships to deal with, without XANA and Lyoko. And we’ve found ways to cope with it, to deal with it. And… I… you’ve been there for me since the beginning. You’ve done more for me than I think I could ever repay you for. And honestly, Jeremy… I don’t know if I can do this without you.”
Aelita’s grip tightened on Jeremy’s shoulder. Aelita’s eyes focused directly on Jeremy’s, and her words started to melt the ice in his heart. It did not fully do the trick, though.
“Aelita, I think you guys could manage without me –”
“Oh the hell with it!” she interrupted, grabbing Jeremy’s head and kissing him like that time on Valentine’s Day. The kiss was short, and once they broke contact, they stared at each other again, this time with surprised and stimulated faces.
“I just wanted you to know that we all care about you,” Aelita said. “And I wanted you to know how I feel. I just wanted you to know… that you are loved, Jeremy.”
The silent stare between two flustered teenagers continued. Aelita was beginning to worry she had gone too far. But that fear was allayed when Jeremy leaned in and kissed her back. Their hands moved up and down each other’s bodies, and Jeremy felt the determination that had driven him for so long coming back to him.
The kiss finally stopped so that Aelita and Jeremy could catch their breath, and they looked each other again, for a while. Jeremy smiled.
“I don’t think I’m ready to leave, just yet,” he said. Aelita smiled back, and started kissing him again.
Disclaimer: I do not own Code Lyoko or its characters. Code Lyoko and its characters are owned by Moonscoop.
I was in the mood for some Jerlita. I had an idea for this after watching the episode of Code Lyoko: Evolution where they try to capture a specter and it goes horribly awry. I started thinking about all of those other times that Jeremy tried a new method to fight XANA that went terribly wrong (like the Marabounta), and I wondered what that would do to his self-esteem. I know what it's like to feel like, no matter how hard you try, you always fail and I wanted to channel that into this one-shot. Then I had the idea of Aelita bringing Jeremy back from the dark hole he finds himself in. Originally, I suggested this as an idea for a deviant named CresentRoseWolfcrescentrosewolf.deviantart.co… (who writes fantastic CL one-shots, by the way), but she didn't want to do it. She said she didn't know if she would be able to do it, which I felt ironic because I was suggesting it to her because I felt I wasn't capable of it. So, I sucked it up and wrote it. I must say, this song helped a lot www.youtube.com/watch?v=_hqW4o…. It probably isn't that good, but I tried. I didn't put as much thought into this story as I usually do. It takes place when the gang's in Kadic, but that's about it. I don't say what Jeremy did, I don't really say whether it takes place during the original series or in Code Lyoko: Evolution because, frankly, I felt that it was irrelevant. I didn't care about tech stuff or whether Laura's trying to steal Jeremy from Aelita or not. I just wanted to focus on Jeremy and Aelita's emotion and their relationship. That was all I cared about, and that's what this story is about.
That was great! I can totally relate to Aelita in this instance, I have a friend that I constantly need to remind that he's not a failure. And I can see how that song provided inspiration, it's a good one. Let me know when you write some more Jerlita fics, I love that ship
Thanks for the comment, I'm glad you liked it. I've been contemplating a somewhat of a Jerlita fic, lately. However, it involves Aelita dating another guy for a while. It has to do with Jeremy's constant hesitation to move forward with Aelita. Because Jeremy is so insecure and afraid to make a move, Aelita starts to think Jeremy might not be interested in her. A new student at Kadic starts flirting with her, she is conflicted due to her love for Jeremy yet her feeling of being ignored by him. While Aelita is physically attracted to the new guy, she's still emotionally attached with Jeremy. Eventually, Aelita dating this new guy is what finally motivates Jeremy to face his fears and admit his feelings for her.
That's sounds pretty good. If I can make a suggestion, from a girl's perspective. I know that girls, especially girls with Aelita's personality, won't usually be phased by attractiveness or charm. Basically, Aelita is wanting to Jeremy express more emotion and feeling towards her, but he is not due to his insecurety, do I have that right so far? What I think would make Aelita tempted to date this other guy, was if said guy was giving her the emotional high Jeremy currently wasn't. This guy doesn't neccesarily have to mean it, but if he behaves very sweetly and tenderly towards her, verses flirting, I think it would be more realistic, and create more drama and feels for the audience
That's a good point. Part of what I was thinking was that this new character would be a good guy, just different from Jeremy. He's not manipulative or predatory, but he is somewhat flawed. He drinks, he smokes weed, but he's also incredibly charismatic. He is able to make Aeltia feel wanted in a way that Jeremy hasn't been good at. The whole time, I would say that Aelita prefers Jeremy. But this new character, because he lacks Jeremy's anxiety, is much more open and relaxed around Aelita. He has an easier time talking to her than Jeremy. And his experiences and interests expose Aelita to things she doesn't have much experience with.
Okay, that makes sense. I like how you involve this new guy in things that would not be healthy for Aelita. This would make Jeremy worried, which from outside POVs, would look like jealousy
He's also a writer and a guitarist. When I said he's expose Aelita to new things, I mostly meant acoustic music.
But yeah, writing about Aelita getting stoned for the first time could be fun, too.
But yeah, writing about Aelita getting stoned for the first time could be fun, too.
Right in the feels!
Ah, I saw this over on FanFiction. I said it before there, I'll say it again here: that was very nice. I also like how you left in all these places to speculate, leaving you wondering what exactly it was that went wrong. And, of course, the Jerlita…perfect. Awesome job.
Good peer into the mind of a savant. The writing style in this piece is extremely organic-nicely juxtaposed against the dry (but good in their own way) style you have for discussing military matters.
Thanks. I wanted to try something new. There's a time for dry, and there's a time for organic.
I like this more than Oddleta. Where did people even come up with that?
Odd and Aelita are friends, and people misjudged. But I find Jerlita to be much deeper. Odd would be more of a rebound fling for Aelita
Jeremy needs more love, he gets beaten on so much and someone needs to be there for him! I demand more canon Jerlita!
It was indeed good.